Posted by Samantha on October 05 2011 08:39 AM
Hey, my names Samantha, im 11 years old, im a girl.
I have anxiety attacks whenever I go to my ballet class (i'm on point now, so this isn't kiddy stuff) and my teacher says things like "sam, In the first movement when you do an arabesque, I want you to put your right foot first, then when 'julie' goes in front of you, I want you to run to the left, starting on your right foot' Thats when I have my anxiety attacks, First I start sweating, my heart rate goes up, my body starts shaking, and I go beetroot red. And 9 times out of 10 I end up crying, because the information just doesn't sink in, no matter how hard I consentrait, everything just seems to go right over my head.
I have been told I'm a very good ballerina, and I could go to the top if I could just get the terms right, but, it just wont happen.
I want to be a ballerina, but, so far a have three things working against me number one: I have knocked knees (if you don't know what it is, search it up ;) ) Number 2: I have fairly large feet, (im size 38 and im 5'1) And my mum is 6 foot, so I am gonna be really tall, which is the worst thing for a ballerina Number 2 i am dyscalculiac!!!! ARRRHH!
So, I have been doing ballet for 7 years now, and I finnaly quit, because it was destroying my self-esteem, and my knock knees where giving me really bad pain in my tendons, and it was getting worse and worse and worse, so much that I have to wear a knee brace on my left knee, (I have an over-grown tendon).
Please, send me an email, or comment if you have the same thing, or feel the same way. :)